A whole new LIFE~~~~~~lalalalllaaaaa~~~~~

Gotta take my offer letter from Air Asia this friday...and...gotta start training soon...therefore, I'm gonna move out to stay liao...with my friends..somewhere in Nilai..gotta see the Apartment this Friday...wish me luck people~~~hahax!! love my life mann...so interesting...sad,happy,angry and disappointment all at the same time and then...bOOOM!!! every thing's fine again....i feel so weird though...w/o Kelz at my birthday seems odd...i mean,..she's always there but...this year...I'm not blaming her....its not what she wants but...all I'm saying is that "Dear...it wud be better if u were there...u brighten up my life..." sweet? XP..Its true u'know...but don't worry...I'm not lesbian...*that's to Ed* just in case u worry...I LOVE MEN...hahax...FYI nia..err..i'm currently jobless...the government just called my roadshow company to cancel everything due to the H1N1...oh well~gotta seek for another good pay job...X.X

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life goes on

I've learnt something..

If you can't forget..learn to forgive..

I've read your blog..

yes..i was touched.

But for the first time..i don't feel any hatred nor guilt..

What u had done the other night..the words..

It's over..

Now..its a begining.

Learn to forgive..you will feel better..

^^

We had loved each other before..

I am still grateful of it.

You had taught me loads of things..

I truely appreciate it.

But...

as i had said,

Life goes on...

read it

乜野系恋爱?

每个人都有佢地既爱情故事

无人知故事点样开始点样终止

缘份要黎就黎冇分系边个时候

话走就走缘份己经到左尽头

呢样野唔系人人睇得咁通透

经常都会有好多盲目既时候

有人为爱可以死心塌地付出一生

系咪值得就见仁见智你自己去谂

情同爱要做出黎并唔容易

口口声声话爱又领略唔到当中意思

情为何物连诗人读咁多书都唔知

未曾体验过个中滋味点会知

系冥冥中注定亦或系上天既安排

呢个世界咁大都可以走埋一齐

总觉得生同死并唔系最远o既距离

而系系你面前你又唔知道我爱你

(chorus)

i wanna be with you (by your side)

为何祇留下痛苦的回忆

你曾对我说把幸福留给我

i don't want you break my heart

爱会那么痛苦(no reason why)

没有你我不能够深呼吸

喜欢听你的甜言蜜语

就算爱过和痛过都愿意

初初一开始最锺意日见夜见

发梦都会见面情话绵绵电话讲唔完

发誓希望两人热恋直至永远

冇谂过爱情之后变感情既局面

祇系几年既感情已经无火花出现

再勉强系埋一齐祇会令人讨厌

想讲分手开唔到口咪再优柔寡断

搵个籍口解决左佢一刀两断

暗恋相恋热恋失恋感情好混乱

太多诱惑而家既人好易移情别恋

婚外情一夜情佢地玩弄感情

三分钟热度之后忘记晒所有事情

其实只要对人唔系有太多既要求

爱一个人根本唔需要有太多理由

祇要真心真意对待已经好足够

姑勿论系曾经拥有亦或天长地久

hmm...quiet spot~

wah..i din really expect here 2 b so...quiet..i mean..no comments..no..nth at all...walao...i really tat bad meh..i mean..walao~nw say somthin over here oso got echo~walao..walao..walao..walao~~~~XS

sadness around the air~

walao..tis blog oso no ppl come in n see..?dulan..i really tat ugly or diu meh..y every1 in tis world hates me..wat happen oh..yorr..i noe i night b lanc bit..but..walao..jus..walao..i realy tat..tat...haizz..im a...nail in the crowd..no 1 does..like me..T.T

sacrifices~

when a love comes to a lvl which u really want the one u love so much 2 hv a good n bright future..theres onli 2 choices 2 make..1..leave tat person bcoz u think u r a burden 2 him/her..2..continue love him/her n oways support...but which 1 r u...n y....2 me..the one who choose the 1st 1..they might b thinkin tat mayb if i let go,he/she will hv a better life..but i wanna ask u 1 simple question..y cant u jus continue support him/her...i mean..if they really go into tat situation..the most importan thing is u,the one they love 2 continue stay wif them n support them..not leave them at tat moment n expect them 2 learn how 2 grow stronger...==..(which is silly n stupid idea)...ppl stay alive coz of themself..but ppl fight not jus 4 them..as well as 4 their love ones...who never make mistakes b4...even tho u might oreadi given them som chances..but til the moment they really learn bout it..y cant u 4giv..n support..i mean...we learn thro our mistakes...when som1 really learn bout it..jus 4 u..there will b no doubt tat..u r the most important person in his/her life...

finally the time has come

as i tot..finally u found it..well,i din expect u to found it so early..but since u did...i guess its the destiny then...ying..wat i hv written inside..i oreadi knew ur reaction the 1st time u read it..but plz...as u noe..my language n skill 2 express myself arent tat good...so plz..plz read it again...u noe u'll find out wat i meant actually...the moment i grab tat pen n start writin..i noe i hv 2 blive from the deepest of my heart...i dun noe how long is it gonna take..but..u will understand..n...i noe wat said is oreadi said...but..wat i meant b4...it never change..u r the most special girl in the earth...in the good side...it never change..no matter how long after..or wat happen in the future...it'll never change..tis is wat i meant..n i'll hv these words in my mind n heart 4ever..not wat i said tat night...i still love u..n...i never stop doin tat...til 4ever...

time is running out

盈，如果您再看着的话。。我真得很像告诉您我真的变了。。变得比以前更紧张您。。可是我不懂得该怎样让您知道。。失去您的日子里真的好痛苦。。别人说当你想念一个人。。是甜蜜的。。可是当您在思念一个人，是痛苦的。。以前的我不懂得珍惜您所给的机会。。但是现在的我学会了。。我真的会了。。。只求您。。。给我一个机会。。因为。。我真的真的好爱您。。

~life~

life is easy..but no1 noes the true meaning behind..people might b using their whole life 2 find wats the reason they were born in tis world..but ppl never really noe tat there is no reason..coz the answer is ur heart..ppl make choices..ppl go in n out..ppl life..ppl die..but how manyof them make the right 1..how many of them meet the right ones..i do..n same as u..if u'r reading tis post..close ur eyes..take a deep deep breath..put away every single thing or relationship u r..look into ur heart..ask it..r u happy..?..relax urself..look 4 the pinkish spot..u will find it..coz..tats ur life..u will find it..tats who u r..''HEART'' a word i giv every single one..come bac coz its never 2 late..im oways here 4 u..

fuck-ed up

i'll cut it short kayz?

1stly, i only had about 3hrs of slp yesterday cause by a serious case of food poisoning.

2ndly, i got into plenty of arguments with baby coz of my tiredness.

lastly, almost got into a car accident cause of my recklessness in driving. dad yelled at me and mum shirked like mad.

I shouldn't have drive...sigh.

I guess it'll be a long time since i ever drive again.

bubiezz..

baby honeydew's special day!!

22/04/2009

MY HONEYDEW'S BIRTHDAY!!!

At 12:00 A.M. sharp

i called him to wish him happy birthday

but his watch showed 12:01..

sorry dear..

i should have synchronised out time earlier..

At 9:35 A.M.

met up with him at KLCC centre court

passed him his box of present

*contains*

a birthday card with 2 lovely 'sweets' inside,

a silver photo album with our pictures on the front page,

a web cam,

a belt and...

mini Patrick..=)

At 10:30 A.M.

went for our grooming class..

At 1.30 P.M.

finished class

At 1:50 P.M.

went to the Pavilion's Dome to have lunch.

He left for awhile.

I used the time he went away to negotiate with the waitresses and the waiter.

Picked a slice of Black & Tan cake

asked them to write some wordings on the plate

At 2:10 P.M.

he came back

ordered fish & chips,strawberry shake & chocolate shake.

At 2:20 P.M.

the group of waitresses and waiters came with the cake

they all sang "Happy Birthday" along with me..

*really appreciate it guys..muaxx!*

baby was so shocked..^^

At 3:20 P.M.

went to Red Box Plus to sing

had a great time till 6:oo

cuz i had to leave

Newayz,these are the pics..

honeydew with strawberry

*i look weird,i know..*

our fish & chips

the slice of cake..

Nice eh?? ^^

but..sorry baby..the girl spelled wrongly

supposed to be "joyeux anniversaire" XS

Anyway baby..i hope that you enjoyed your birthday..muaxx..

Joyeux Anniversiare Mon Amour..

Je T'aime

at work..

LOOK AT THIS!!!

you know what?? i think this is ridiculous!! This is one of my student, TS

He is a std 3 kid and look at his...his...scl bag!!

I think the bag weighs more than him!!

I offered assistance to him but he rejected..

he says..a boy shouldn't let a girl carry their bag..

sweet for a young man eh?

no no..not to run topic..

i mean..c'mon larr..

he's what? 9 yrs old?

i think if this continues..

he'll be hunched back by 18..

rite?

I dun get it..

Why scls don't provide lockers??

Why make students suffer like this..

Find an alternative for students larr!

imagine what type of posture he'll have in a few more years in that stupid school!

sigh..

AND AND AND

don't their parents take actions???

i mean..

I wouldn't let my kid to carry such heavy bag..

where are his parents anyway??

he's goes to scl..then day-care, then tuition THEN only he goes home.

Parents these days..

sigh

I wouldn't wanna just spend 1-2 hrs with my kids daily..

would u?

sad eh kids these days..

newayz i gtg...

thank god my parents are not like that tho..

thankx mum and dad

for all the love you showered me..

i love you guys..

P/s: remember guys..mother's day is round the corner..

get her something..

bring her out for a lunch or a walk..

anything..

its the thought that counts..

owh mann~

early this mornin, i could hardly wake up when my bro knocked on my door..but eventually, i did. My phone beeped at 6:45 but i didn't bother cause i assumed that it was honeydew giving me a wake up message. So, i cleaned up and put on my make up. Once i was in my dad's car heading towards his office, i checked my cell and it was a message from my boss. She asked me if honeydew and i could work tonight after class..she really needs our help cuz her husband, her youngest son n her second daughter fell sick again..

And for once i thought 'yay..no need to work tonight!~'..and then..sigh. But how could i say no? I dun wanna be so cold blooded. sigh...

Its really dumb of her in one perspective. She buys chinese medication for her family. I mean..hello? What's wrong wit our normal pills? She says that it is like drugs..they help you to boost your antibody up once u take the medication and its not good for our body.I mean..isn't that what medicine's suppose to do? Why choose to suffer long term when u can get well in a day? She says it can strengthen our body immune system but how come i don't feel so? Her kids get sick so often that i've lost count!! Sigh..sometimes people can be that stubborn eh? XP

Gtg now..to work as usual..ciaozz!

tired~

okay~the weariness got me! I mean..i tend to loose my temper and cry alot...sigh~..you guys might think like.."aiya~typical strawberry larr~" but..this is getting too much..when i did a mistake..i actually push all the blames to others! I just don't see that I'm actually WRONG! Well at that time larr..now..yeah,but isn't that a lil too late?? Like today~ I..I was a terrible person. I want to be a good gf but i just cant rein myself in..he's gettin frustrated already..

Me,myself tried and is still trying my hardest to change my attitude.

If you don't feel that i'm actually trying, now i'm tellin u i tried..i really did..i'm still working on my courage that's all..

please..I love you..and baby..

"ju ne sais pas que je ferais sans toi,

tu est mon monde,

ma lumiere,

mon ame..

je reux etre a tes conter pour toujour~

je t'aime mon amour~"

*special thankx to*

Miss-critical

(hugs and kisses)

=P

now..talking on the phone wit u..u're mad wit me again...

u said u dun wanna talk to me..sigh..

cause i'm chattin..i told u i'm not...sigh. u'll see that i wasn't chattin k?

bubiezz~

busy life

Bonsoir~(good evening)

I gave up my job at Caring pharmacy to be a full time tuition teacher. My new boss felt that i can teach her 6 year old daughter. She told me something that made me take up that offer. It was her daughter's story.

Her daughter falls sick very frequently and had been through opperations. They discovered a lump on her chest a few years back and she had to get rid of it..worrying that its a tumor. After the opperations,her family showered her with love and pampered her. She still gets sick very often and now she had an extra problem,we call it the 'attitude problem'..she gets whatever she want and that made her very demanding. If the teachers scolds her, she will throw her pencil and refuse to study. She does not like male teachers too. So, her mum can't enroll her in kindergarten. She has a very loving character tho..she will great her teachers with hugs and kisses and ask "Do you love me?" most of the times. Q eh? ^^

I hope i can handle her though..it might be tough as i'm not that patient. This morning, i gave tuition to a 14 year old guy. History and mathematics. *sobz*. It was so bloody embarassing! I can't do some of the ratio questions. ><" I'm an SPM leaver for god's sake! History was much better..honeydew laughed at me in for the math incident..that bad egg! XP

Honeydew's went back to Johor yesterday for 'Ching Ming'. I miss him already...~Honeydew may be helping our boss's husband *we work at the same centre* with his catering job. My mum's against the idea of me doing catering too. My mum said I'm at high risk to be verbally and physically harassed. I understand what she means so i didn't bother to argue bout it..

I better be going..got another assignment to do..and French h/w too..

Aurevoir (goodbye).

my new image

my first day for class

w/o make up and over sized uniform

hahax!

Today.

my forth class.

better hair-do with smudged make up.

After dinner marr~so..i basically ate all my make up too~

honeydew kinda like my new image..i look much more professional he says.

^^

Life's gooood~

life is good lately!

no arguments with honeydew..*muaxx*

got the jobs i want..

&...

made a good impression in class..*i think XP*

honeydew tolerate a lot with me lately and that definitely made my life much more easier..

I managed to get all the jobs i applied for. I'm now doing 3 different jobs.

I'm a math tutor at E-nopi*students from 3/4-15 yrs*, a science tutor for form1 and form2 *only on Fridays* and I'm working part time at Caring Pharmacy..good eh?? hahax! I hope i can manage my time properly..^^"

AT my course, honeydew's performances were amazing..he managed to get our headmaster's heart..Sir commented that he has excellent reasoning skills..XP..he was nominated as our class monitor*again* and I am the assistant monitor..amazing eh?? for the third year I'm still in this position!! hahax! Honeydew's better tho..its his 4th year..

I better go now..class is starting in an hour's time. English classes. hahax. French was yesterday..it was really interesting..^^ gotta run..

Aurevoir!

money,job and homework =="

This morning i was awoken by a phone call..to my surprise,it wasn't honeydew calling..it was Haruyasu, asking me if i received his message..i was so blur at that time that i answered 'uhm' to everything..XD later on,i did receive a message from him. It was a reload coupon number..how nice of him..^^ I asked for his help yesterday but he wasn't out at that time..but on that same nite honeydew managed to get Wes to send me five bucks..so actually i didn't need that reload already =P..

Later on,around 12..i went to my job interview appointment i made last Friday. I wanted to get a part time job as a tuition teacher..i mean yeah,i already have a job at E-nopi but that itself is not gonna help me cover up any of my expenses on clothings nor cosmetics. By the time i walked there,it was around 12.15. I still have 15 minutes but i wanted to give a good impression y'noe..then,i called her up to ask whether she could let me in first..that was when she told me that she forgotten about our appointment. Hmph. She even ask me if i could drive to where she and her family's havin lunch at. It was at 'Calorie' so yeah..i knew the way..so i walked home and got permission..my dad said ok as long as my mum's by my side. So,immediately my mum and i left..

Once i reached there,she wasn't who i expected to see. She was in her 40s asnd she actually sounded 20+ Lolz! Then she stood up and sat at another table with me. Then she asked me those normal interview questions..it felt wierd tho..seeing others eat at the next table while i try to concentrate *yeah,i was hungry at that time..* We talked for quite some time *cause she tend to keep 'run topic'* And that's when she told me to try out tommorow at 3pm. Oh godd~i mean..my job tommorow at E-nopi is at 4-9..how am i suppose to..anywayz..i think i'll go at 3 to try out first..then maybe at 4 i'll leave. sigh. I'm messed up my life again.

After that,we went to Kels's house to feed her dog and my mum cleaned their cage too..then,i drove home. Not long after we got home, we left to pick my bro up from tuition and then to club. I helped out at the library for the kids art and craft session again..we made Easter bunnies! It was fun~lolz..i got so many 'thank you teacher' wishes from the kids..it was so satisfying..hahax!When we were done,i went for a shower and now..i'm updating my blog instead of completing my lil assignment which is two simple essays. A lil voice in me tells me that its too simple a task to start so early..XP

Oh yeaa~I got my brows done and i look like a whore..that was a comment from my dad..how polite rite? That's not all..this afternoon i was also accused as a thief..What a happy family i've got. I shall thank god.

This Wednesday,my class starts at 11. 11.00-12.30 will be our French class. And then, 1.30-5.00 will be our normal training and also the time i have to pass up my essays..sigh..i better go larr..not that good to leave it till last minute rite?rite.

adieu!

monkey invasion

guess what!! i was in the living room playing the psp while my mum was also in the living room using the lap top when..the maid started shrieking from the kitchen! When we looked back, all i heard was somethin fell onto the floor and she was lookin out the window. When we went in the kitchen, we saw her pickin up the bananas from the floor. She said a monkey came in to take the bananas from our dining table..hahax! We went to look for the monkey and yes..it was still on the wall lookin at us with the "what??" look..it was huge ehh~ my phone battery was low tho..so..yeah..no proof..that's all...mum wanna use lerr.. bubiezz!

new me?

Yesterday i started my course wit a cabin crew agency at KL plaza. I mean..its cool and all but its only twice a week..so..i was thinking of gettin a part time job..but where? SR again? nahh~honeydew would kill me..XD newayz..just updating a lil for now..baby has been very down lately..coz of his so-called 'bad luck'..how could he not feel lucky to have me? hahax..k larr..gotta go for class soon..signin off..bubiezz

pics again~~^^

10th MARCH 2009

look at em'!! cute?? lolz..

13 MARCH2009

i played roller blading wit sean..kinda rusty in it ad..XS

20th MARCH 2009

* my aunts birthday~whoopy!! my parents went up to genting so my bro and i joined my aunt's bithday dinner at a chinese restaurant..we had a really good time tho..hahax!*

THE MENU~*yummy~*

SHARK FIN~~~!

Lobster baked in cheese sauce..*this was the best dish*

Some kinda spensive fish and wierd long stuff for steamboat.



so-called-formal dinner~hahax!


..sean dancing wit me...


Owh yea~~my new hairstyle...nice ma? XP

Thats all guyz..bubiezz

snap shots

VALENTINES DAY!

i baked a cheese cake but that was also what i got honeydew for his 17th birthday so i decided to make it a lil more special...

so....

*Ta-DAA!*

I've turned it into a 'heart-shaped' cheese cake

That's nt all~~

It's double layered!!

The white coloured thingy in the middle is cream cheese..fattening,i know~XD

*Honeydew was quite happy bout that 'gift' i got for him..its nothing expensive but..i really placed effort in it..after work which was about 12..i quickly showered and made that cake..i wanted it to be fresh so it was technically made on that very same valentines day. *

Honeydew brought me to MV that day..could u believe it?? My dad gave us permission!! lolz.

He gave me 2 bouquet of flowers!!!!! ^^

Right after the outing..i went back to work~ till almost 12 again...tiring~

27 February 2009.

After going to the stadium to watch my bro's skul sports day..my bro,honeydew along with four of his friends went to k4 wit me..

Guess what?

I changed my hairstyle...nice?? Well it's just a temporary curl but i did trim my hair abit.. =D

My bro took our pic for us..^^

I went to k4 to buy some groceries for my mum

look at our background and guess which section were we at...XD

8 MARCH 2009

There was this 'hello kitty M.A.C.' stage at the centre court of MV

It was a promotion for their new products..

I went on stage for the make up session too~

Me after make up..is there any difference than the usual me? i dont feel so~

THAT'S ALL FOR NOW

BUBIEZZ!

whoopy!!

things got better lately~for example..i quited my job on 2nd of March~lolz. Yes,i liked the job..but..its getting outta hand. I work OT but i don't get paid for it..shit eh? And it's not once or twice..eh c'mon la~when i came in for the interview they said that they don't include OUR meals but the pay us for OT..now?? My dad said it's a waste of time arguing so might as well quit and focus on my driving..Oh..and talking about driving,I'm taking my exams next Tuesday..hahax! I'm quite sure I'll fail...so..hahax.

Honeydew quited his job yesterday too..i went to see him yesterday..it was meant to be a surprise since i had never visited him at his work place before..it was a disaster at first..he made it like i did something wrong..but it turned out fine at last..oh yea~there was a stage promoting the 'hello kitty M.A.C.' product and i got a free makeover..hahax...the girls were surprised that i had no make up on..so they had to do an extra job which is to apply foundation..XD ooh ooh..and i got a free make up remover too~ha ha!! but actually i can't see the difference in me even after the make over..mummy took pictures of me tho~

Not everything went well tho......

3rd MARCH 2009

baby hamster got old and...sobz

It's eyes were still open.....*sniff sniff*

It's funeral was held in my backyard..

May it rest in peace.

Anywayzz~

I'll upload the main pics i took since the past few months in the next posts...^^

love,work and difficulties..

It has been a month or so that I had started working at Secret Recipe. It’s really a new milieu for me..a huge contrast from being a kindergarten teacher..lolz. Anywayz..i have 6 male colleagues and 1 female colleague. That’s excluding my supervisor, Kim. She’s strict and always have a terrible case of mood swings...mainly due to un-tally accounts.lolz.
Unfortunately, my love life is in a mess! Its like,the more i try to do well at work,the worse my relationship with honeydew gets..We get into the same type of argument all the time..the main problem is caused by my weariness and lack of time..because of my heavy duties at work..its really tough for me to stay awake till 2 in the morning, chatting with him on the the phone..my job is not only waitress-ing y'know..its a mix of that and also a maid's job in the kitchen...and a cleaning lady's job..i wash, i sweep, i mop, i wipe, i serve...etc..Sobz!It's really tiring..but he just doesn't seem to understand it..he says he does but...sigh...sometimes i guess.
My monthly pay was f*ckingly disappointing! RM534.20?? I mean..C'mon la~Honeydew's working at MV with the basic salary of 1k...yiesh!
oh yeah..Well...there's a guy there that somehow has a crush on me..not really a crush larh..he confessed his feelings to me ad..AND i told him its not right..i mean...i love honeydew..and he knew me like for a month only!yeah~that guy does treat me well..but..there's so many other options..why me? I tried to keep our distance b4..he doesn't like it but..that's the only way..I'm not right for him..he's just not sure about his feelings that's what i keep telling him..he just keep denying that fact. I don't wanna hurt him..

En..i did a few new things to myself lately..i highlighted my hair with pink (at least it was supposed to look pink) XP.. and i got new spects..pink tinted! hahax!! Well..my hair was highlighted by my bro..i only bought the bleach..and my spects was paid by my collegue..he accidentally broke it so..yeah..so unfortunate eh?
Honeydew,I know you're trying very hard to love me and show me that you care for me..I love you too..but gimme some time k? I promise you that I'll try too..try to understand at your point of view..try to tolerate with you..muaxx..i love you forever!

my honey's creativeness~

看你笑笑动我心,

追你一生是真心,

别人追你我担心,

害我工作不传心,

看你笑时就开心,

永远对你最真心,

一生一世不变心,

世界末日一颗心.

muaxx~