09 August 08'

My new hairstyle...shorter fringe,different style but the same me.. =) heh..nice?

Yesterday night was horrible..i had an awful dream. I woke up sobbing. Worse of all..i couldn't’t remember what was the dream about ! Later on when I went out to get some fruit juice for breakfast,it all came back to me. I remembered what was the nightmare I had. I din’t feel any better..(f.y.i. its about honeydew). I knew this would wreck my day.I was so scared it would really happen. Honeydew getting sick of me. Protecting another instead of me. Pushing me away. Saying things that could shred my heart. Sigh. It made me so tired.And hungry. My mum got shocked when I ate a packet of noodles followed by a packet of rice for breakfast.Which is an unusual case cause I use to eat really little. It was around noon when honeydew text-ed me asking where am i..i was still really down so I replied to him w/o showing much interests & then told him I was busy. After another four hours he text-ed me again saying that he’ll accompany me to tuition. Well,it was about time to catch the bus for tuition so I told my mum honeydew will be with me and then I left home.Eventually,during the ‘journey’ to my tuition..i told him about the dream,my feelings and everything. I thought he would say something like “You don’t trust me??” . Instead his reaction took me by surprise..he was so thoughtful. He tried to make me smile and said things I never expected him to say in this condition..

After that,we went for biology tuition. Our Bio teacher took the effort to give us classes during his free periods..so now every Wednesday’s evening,he will tutor honeydew and I for 90 minutes. I understood more that honeydew..oh well..I AM a fast learner.LOLZ.. Honeydew can’t really face failure..especially getting lower marks than I mine. His so-called fiasco. I guess by that,it does motivates us..^^ Since my mood is back to normal,honeydew agreed on having dinner with me.Which includes my mum and bro. After ordering,my dad called and said that he’ll join us for dinner. Which caused honeydew to excuse himself from the table. My dad does not really encourage our relationship.That does not mean my mum does. Its just that she’s slowly trusting me..i guess..

I felt bad that he had to leave. But what could we do? Let him stay and face the music? Anyways,when we reached home..we played table tennis in my car-porch. (Pictures will be uploaded asap).It was fun. Having all of us together,enjoying ourselves..what more could I wish for?^^

Birthday presentssss...

cake from daddy,red packet from mummy,strawberry youghurt bars and strawberry lollipops from bro.

Secrets' Recipe banana choc cake and a "message in a bottle" from honeydew~~

A butterfly necklace and a lovely card from my best best friend, Kimura.

Ralph Laurent body moisturizer from Hansuke..

Holiday but not holiday~

today's a holiday and in another 15 minutes..i'll be at tuition again..sigh..what could i do?Gotta work on my physics and add math wert..
and so,honeydew isn't gonna be with me till around eleven something...so..hmm...
BTW,last last's thursday was my birthday..yeah,my 17th birthday. It was suppose to be the greatest birthday ever but...it dissapointed me somehow..i guess i expected too much.. AT LEAST,my parents,Kimura,my best friend,honeydew,my mate and a few more acquaintances of mine actually remembered my b-day..the others..sigh..anyway..i will upload a few of the pictures of my presents in a few more days time..kayzz?

P/S : thankx everyone for everything..esp.honeydew and kimura for accompany-ing the whole day. Muaxx.

This's my lil cousin brother's b-day cake.RM100++ ah..blackforest tho.

My bro and i..isn't he cute?